Too many thoughts in my head.

So, you are going to get Bullet points.

  1. Granddad is in a Hospice.
    • Despite all his “false stops”, he is quite perky really. He is on pain relief, but not Morphine, so still communicative. All good. His greatest fear was to lose his mind to the Drugs.
    • He is stronger than we all thought he would be, but really so weak and frail it is unreal. For all of his illness over the last 13 years, the actual final decline part has been so fast really. I’d sort of love for him to get better, but we all know that isn’t happening… But then, Granddad is a stubborn bugger, so you can never tell with him.
    • Auntie Mary is being not cool about The Will at all… I suspect that it is going to get VERY messy once Granddad does die.
    • She is not happy that Mum gave me some of Nanny’s Jewelery. She yelled at Mum big time for doing it. However, as Nanny gave it to me (“Your Auntie Mary will sell it, and your Mum will lose it, so I’m giving it to you Nikola.”) I’m not feeling guilty in the slightest. She already took a Crucifix from it a while back, which is one piece too many was far as I’m concerned. Mum wants me to “be generous” and give some of it to Auntie Mary for Claire-Louise, but as far as I’m concerned, if they want to fight me for my property, bring it on. Verbal contract is Verbal Contract.
    • Mum is “stable”, she has made her peace with Granddad, but I’m on Schrapnel fall-out duty big-style. More due to Auntie Mary agitating Mum than anything else!
  2. Kinkfest is Friday.
    • It seems like it has been a short 7 months since I said I’d do the Management for the “Stage” section of the event! If I’m not ready now, I never will be. There are a few finishing touches I need to do and a e-mails I need to send, but generally, right now, I can’t wait until it is over.
    • It does mean that I’m not going to get a lot of sleep over the weekend… and inevitably, because it is the most awkward time for me, I reckon Granddad will die Thursday or Friday.
    • I have Tommorow, Friday and Monday booked off of work to be there, and a StreetCar to cart stuff about. So, apart from the emotional ride I’m getting from it, on top of Granddad, KF is costing me about £400 in lost wages and £105 Car hire. I’ll expense some of it back to Unfettered Ltd, but I know I’m not up for being this involved with it all again next year. Not as bad as other though, I know one fo the crew that lost the hace for a promotio, because she has to attend a council licensing meeting for us! Not good.
  3. Matt e-mailed me.
    • When your psycotic Ex gets back in touch, just at the wrong point in life, it gives you more thoughts that you can cope with.
    • Sane head says “Leave well alone girl!”
    • Scorpio Heart says “Revenge…” After all, I’m so not the person that he left 5 years ago… and the best revenge is to live well.
    • Practical Wallet says “but he owes you £1500!”, not that I’ll ever see that, but that comes back to Point above…
    • Either way, I’m not doing anything about it until after the 1&2 are sorted.
  4. Ankle is much better, although, still a touch tender, and swollen to about twice the size of the other ankle.:-(
  5. Love life is “interesting”, has settled down so I don’t have to “worry” about it.
    • “Guru of the Mystic” is becoming a feature. There is progression in fits and starts, I’ve sorted out with him where I tand and what I expect from him in terms of Honesty, and all seems well. I don’t think its ever going to be “great love”, but hey, let’s see where it goes.
    • One of my “Friends with Benefits” seems to have found someone else to get their benefits from… Which actually suits me, as I’ve been trying to get him to not rely som much on me. So, that’s good. 🙂
  6. Work suqs, but then when does it ever not. However, we moved to the Town Hall, which cuts 20 minutes off of my commute, so that is all good! 🙂

3 thoughts on “Too many thoughts in my head.”

  1. Still thinking of you,mum and grandad of course,but stuff auntie mary and her canary!
    she can’t take whats yours and no one can take away your memories Nikki, remember that what ever


  2. its me again, when auntie mary starts sing these to yourself[to the scottish tune chase me charlie]

    Auntie Mary had a canary
    oop the leg ‘o’ her drawers
    she pulled em down for half a crown
    and has never been seen anymore!

    Auntie Mary had a canary oop the leg ‘o’ her drawers
    and when she farted
    it departed
    down the leg ‘o’ her drawers!

    hope they cheer you up!


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